The day of her wake was dream like. Picked up Jabari, who worked at Frescos, and hit the LC. Ten bucks got us a few pabst, then we hit the highway. I brought us to a place I call "C-spot", a conservation area overlooking Lake Ontario, in NOTL. We rolled a cannon of a doob and cracked our hipster ale then silence overcame us. Jabari referenced a solid story that got us talking about the good times. After many salutes to the sky and much reminiscing it was time to go to the legion and say our goodbyes,
The Niagara-on-the-Lake Legion was roaring with friends and family. Many happy and familar faces, people remembering the good times. Sam Quinn lost her cousin, we knew each other from work and Sir Winston. It was hard to be sympathetic to someone who was soo distraught, the heartless, numbness was in full effect. Made a stupid, poorly placed joke and laughed in awkwardness. Photos projected on dull white screens, people with children, smokers cough. The place was a mix between a cocktail party and a Mexican stand-off, impossible to tell when and who would break next. O.V's were had all around in honor. Jabari noticed the guest book slash farewell slash last words book, it was one of the most intimidating objects I've ever met. Had to let a few people skip ahead of me before writing something. Now the reality had set in, Jackie is dead. She's gone, to a better place most people would like to believe. I scrawled out "It's shitty you had to leave soo soon, I'll always cheers my O.V to the sky to you in honor." Jackie was a party in a five-foot nothing package, I found it a fitting way to honor her, obviously Old Vianna was her choice of drink.The emotions actually kicked in, grabbed Jabari and headed towards my car, out of there before breaking down in a sobbing mess. Holy shit the kid has emotions.
It took me weeks to finish this, every time this post passed my eyes something was revised. Nothing was ever finished or started, very defeating. Knowing that when I hit publish I will have officially accepted that the reality is she's gone.
May you rest in peace JAX.
Thank you drugs, and thank you moneen for aiding me in laying this to rest.
The Niagara-on-the-Lake Legion was roaring with friends and family. Many happy and familar faces, people remembering the good times. Sam Quinn lost her cousin, we knew each other from work and Sir Winston. It was hard to be sympathetic to someone who was soo distraught, the heartless, numbness was in full effect. Made a stupid, poorly placed joke and laughed in awkwardness. Photos projected on dull white screens, people with children, smokers cough. The place was a mix between a cocktail party and a Mexican stand-off, impossible to tell when and who would break next. O.V's were had all around in honor. Jabari noticed the guest book slash farewell slash last words book, it was one of the most intimidating objects I've ever met. Had to let a few people skip ahead of me before writing something. Now the reality had set in, Jackie is dead. She's gone, to a better place most people would like to believe. I scrawled out "It's shitty you had to leave soo soon, I'll always cheers my O.V to the sky to you in honor." Jackie was a party in a five-foot nothing package, I found it a fitting way to honor her, obviously Old Vianna was her choice of drink.The emotions actually kicked in, grabbed Jabari and headed towards my car, out of there before breaking down in a sobbing mess. Holy shit the kid has emotions.
It took me weeks to finish this, every time this post passed my eyes something was revised. Nothing was ever finished or started, very defeating. Knowing that when I hit publish I will have officially accepted that the reality is she's gone.
May you rest in peace JAX.
Thank you drugs, and thank you moneen for aiding me in laying this to rest.